We had a storm this past week, and the wind blew the rain side ways as it came down. The effect on the tree in our back yard was striking as it split the face on the tree right down the middle. It seemed to be the perfect standard for my thoughts on Tysabri, a drug I've take to slow the progression of my multiple sclerosis. It fits my limited understanding of Yin and Yang.
I was asked in a recent survey about my high school what about my life makes me feel most successful? I went back to my goals coming out of high school, and the first goal was to make enough money for money to never be the reason I can't follow a dream. Then from the time A came to live with us, I have been telling my kids, I have nothing more valuable to give them than my time and attention. The survey came to me on the right weekend, because it reminds me of the real answer for what about my life feels most like success.
Success is realizing that while my time and attention may be the most valuable things I have to offer my kids, all that I give them is returned to me magnified and multiplied as if seen in some carnival mirrors in a mad house. Their love is the sunny side of the face.
The time and energy I have been given to spend with them after feeling so rotten my first 9 months after being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis have been a blessing. The drug has enabled the parts of my life of which I am most proud.
(For the Yin continue to the next page)